Careful now, this could cause damage to feels. It’s been a great ride, and a great show.
Merlin Tribute || We’ve Had The Time Of Our Lives (by missjessieban)
He doesn’t let his mind go there because he can’t. Because he still has a job to do and Stiles is probably fine and it’s not like it’s the first time he’s ever run off anyway.
So he doesn’t let himself think about it because if he does, he won’t be able to get himself off the floor and out of the liquor cabinet.
But in this moment, this second, he lets himself dwell on the fact that his only son, his beloved son, might be dead.